3 years and hanging on...

So its been more thank two and a half  years since I last blogged here, as a happy-go-lucky, excited little birdie flying away from its nest for the first time. And its been a crazy ride since then.. There have been lots of highs and some lows. Mostly highs (all pun intended), and then some super lows. Sigh, I know I sound so jaded, and maybe I am. I think I'm done with this 'happy' life. Been there, done it all.


I've had the best moments of my life and I've had the worst moment(s) of my life. My first real feeling of independence, my first home away from home, my first set of roommates, my first too-drunk-to-stand moment, my first set of 'serious' fights, my first of many heart-to-heart confessions, my first controversy, my first real big fight, my first bitching-behind-my-back situation, my first real forever-kinda-friends, my first 'official' trips, my first big presentations, my first awards, my first professional screw ups. Been there, done it all.

From coming here all alone, to making a crazy large group of friends, to finding a handful of close ones, and then being the last one standing, from awesome relationships unfortunately turning into shit, to re-discovering the good old ones, from being the naive happy fool to learning how to play the game, from hearing about social/work politics to learning how to work the wheel, from being the one in need of guidance to being someone able to guide another. Been there, done it all.

Its crunch time now, time to make some tough decisions, and I'm stuck. Sometimes, I feel like I've pulled along far enough and its time to get the hell outta here. Sometimes I feel I overstayed my welcome and thats why things got so screwed up, some(rare)times I feel like there's more, much more I can learn, more I can gain. Time to make that decision, and here I am, holding on to the damned fence for dear life. Oh God, why did you make me Libran?